sukiilyn

 Okay. So much for the daily postings. Life is just... too awesome right now to focus on doing something daily. I have so many things to do and such little time to do them in.

Today, for instance, was absolute BLISS. I got to make up a test that I wasn't supposed to make up in one of my classes. Guaranteed a 50 on it, which isn't GREAT, but it's not a 0, so I don't even care. Then I spent pretty much all day with Jeremiah. After doing my paperwork at Waldenbooks, for like 30 minutes, we ate, went to the park, cuddled, kissed, and listened to music. Then I went to my Waldens training for the Kiosk... and went to eat with Jeremiah again before he went back to work. It was just... perfect. I could not have pictured a better day. Not in a million years.

Getting up at friggen 7am for class. But it's okay. It's Wednesday!! Woooooo~! Then going by Waldens to get my schedule for next week to take to GameStop. My first official day at Waldens is Friday at 9:30AM and then I work 11AM at GameStop. Morning hours. Ew. Even bigger ew... Jeremiah gets to work when I leave. >insert sadface here<

But oh well. This day just makes this entire week, no matter how crappy it WAS, or BEGAN... perfect.

It's kind of scary. Falling so hard and fast for someone, I mean. Part of me wants to reach out and grab something to stop myself from falling, but I don't want to. I'm really enjoying this. I'm scared that I'm gonna keep falling and he won't catch me, but then again... if he doesn't, I'm going to have amazing memories and I'll just... have to find a way to move on. I just have a good feeling that he's gonna catch me, though. The little gestures and smiles say more to me than anything could.

And his hoodie is friggen comfortable. And warm. Mmm. Warm. I have something new to sleep in every night. And nothing but. Awwwwright! >dance<

But yeah. I'm going to bed early for once. He's gonna play Call of Duty: Black Ops when he gets home, so I'm gonna let him have his video game time and I'm gonna catch up on my sleep time. Woohoo!

Goodnight, Jeremiah. <3 I don't like going home and not seeing you, but I think I'll survive. For now. ;)

I've gone through and erased all my previous depressing entries. It's time for a fresh start.

I've gotten rid of the abusive bastard. I mean, Steven. I've gotten some semblance of freedom from my parents. I've met a really amazing person. He's a wonderful friend and an even better boyfriend. He has his flaws, like being able to make me cry without trying, but hey. I'm not gonna change him because he's perfect for me.

Now all that's left is working on my health and my self-esteem. I'm considering restarting P90X, but I'm really unsure... I have classes Monday/Wednesday (8AM-9:20AM and 11:25AM-12:45PM) and Tuesday (11AM-12PM). Then I have my job at GameStop... plus I just picked up a job at Waldens. At both, I'll probably get like 20+ hours a week. Not arguing about the extra cash I'm gonna have... but I am distressed about how tired I'll be and how little time I'll have to actually do P90X.

I have been considering, however, doing only certain P90X workouts. Like doing the Yoga once a day. Ab Ripper X every other day. Cause, in reality, I don't need to bulk up like P90X is designed to do. I just wanna slim down and get really flexible again. I'm definitely gonna stop drinking tea and cokes and start drinking water or something else. I just HAVE to cut down on all the sugar I take in. And I've got to STOP eating every 2-3 hours. I've got to cut down to a good breakfast, a healthy lunch, and a good dinner.

OH. And there's a Thanksgiving Challenge going on around Facebook. You post something, different, that you're thankful for everyday. I may actually start doing this. To engage me in something other than World of Warcraft or MagiStream. Besides, it wouldn't hurt to count my blessings once a day.

THANKSGIVING CHALLENGE: Day 07 (Technically day 1, but stfu).
Today, I am thankful for... finding my Zune. I have re-found some of my favorite artists. And I have danced and relaxed for the past 4 hours to good music that I missed.

Daily Shoutout...
I will also be doing a daily shoutout to someone that I just feel like shouting at. Well. Not really shouting. But someone, whether they read my journal or not, that I feel deserve attention. <3

My daily Shoutout is for Jeremiah. I want you to know that you are amazing. I hate it when you get mad about things and take them out on me, but if it makes you feel better... do it. I'm here for whatever you need me for. Just don't hurt me by leaving. I trust you and I want to be around you more than anything. Don't let people get you angry, though. I much prefer your smile. In fact, I love your smile. Stay strong, baby. I know people are stupid. I know sometimes you just wanna strangle anything that breathes. But don't hide your smile from me because of that.